Sometimes things are too hard. I think that I am strong enough, or maybe hope I am. So far I have managed, but sometimes it feels overwhelming. I will be fine and I really don't have any cause to complain. Many have it much tougher for much longer. I have so many advantages. I see things coming my way that are massive and uncaring and they will come whether I'm ready or not. I'm not ready, nor will I be, no matter what I do. I must just trust that I will cope or accept failure with grace. Grace I have never had. I want to be the shield, I want to be the support, but I'm sure I will be neither. Perhaps the best I can do is not be an additional puzzle to solve.