I often write in this thing when I feel depressed or anxious. Please feel free to skip this post if you have had your fill of self-indulgent whining. I've been in relatively good health this year, but just got a cold a few days ago. So far it's been pretty mild and I hope I'm on the getting better side of it all. The cold isn't that bad, but it really brings back my panic attacks. I cough up anything and my head is telling me I'm going to choke. I'm going to die. Now I'm pretty sure that I'm overreacting, but it still feels real. I do have Xanax, which helps me get to sleep. I guess I just want to tell someone that I am worried. Don't anyone feel they need to do anything about this. Often just saying things out loud or writing them in public helps to get them in perspective. I hate being so afraid.