I think it might have meant more earlier in my life. I'm still not completely sure how I feel about it. I think it's closer to a things to do list item being crossed off. Well that is done anyway, but having closure etc. isn't at all how I'm feeling. Maybe if there was a next step, but really it's just a piece of data to use in the future.

As far as doctors and the patriarchal system being a big part of the problem. I do get you and I do agree, but at least for me (and I'm a generally social old white guy, so I don't get a lot of the crap others do.) Doctors have a really stepped things up. For me though the thing that changed was finding Steve, my primary care physician who is a PA and not an actual doctor. Really early on in our relationship I was having a hard time and Steve said, "I'm your doctor Guy. I'm on your side." I'd always felt antagonism from the medical profession and having Steve say that really changed my perspective. And of course others experiences will vary wildly. For me that was the big step that got me starting to deal with the medical profession again. Which is not to say I don't have any trouble with how medicine still works.