Updates and thank-yous

[stonebender]

I tend to think of myself as someone in the background. Yes, people like me and notice me and think I'm a good guy and all, but generally, I'm one of the group, one of the crowd. I have been the center of a lot of activity in the last few weeks. I can't say I've loved all of it. Suctioning may be necessary in your life some day, but it's the most unpleasant thing I've ever allowed requested someone to do to me. I have been about as scared as I've ever been in my life, and I have felt more loved than I have ever felt.

There's no way for me to express the gratitude I feel towards all of you -- those who visited me in the hospital, like leback and waywardcats and tracytreefrog (and the rest of my blood family, who won't read this) and sogwife; the phone calls I received from people like elisem and snippy; the balloons from epi_lj, oksana, and clawfoot; and my Guardian Butterfly from kalmn. There are others, and I may be forgetting some.

But anyway, I am slowly on the mend. Today was the first day I slept through the night. I can see normal from here, and want it desperately.

Again, thanks to everyone. I don't know how I would've gotten through it without my loved ones and all your thoughts, prayers, wishes, and good vibes.

And wild_irises, you deserve some kind of medal or parade or something for helping me and loracs and serenejournal to get through all of this.

Comments

[pantryslut.livejournal.com]

I am so happy you are home and on the mend! It is good to hear from you.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I'm pretty much over the pneumonia now. I just have to get over the panic attacks and fear of mortality. I'm probably going to start counseling again.

[waywardcats.livejournal.com]

And wild_irises, you deserve some kind of medal or parade or something for helping me and loracs and serenejournal to get through all of this.

I am so up for a parade! All three of these amazing women deserve to be showered with praise! I'll sooo help you build the floats.

Yay! for sleeping through the night and Yay! that you are back!!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

They absolutely do! I'm sleeping consistently. I still need a little Xanix though. I just keep trying to get through the days until I feel normal again.

[waywardcats.livejournal.com]

I am so happy to hear that you are sleeping better. Just keep on keepin on, and normal will come.

I can't believe that you made wild_irises cry.

And let's you and I come up with a dastardly plot to say a proper "thank you" to those amazing, deserving and ever-so-humble women!

[autographedcat.livejournal.com]

Glad you're starting to feel better!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

And here is a very late thank you!

[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

This is making me cry. I have been nervous all morning about IM-ing you, because I so badly wanted to hear that you slept through the night, and I didn't want to put any of that onto you.

Medals and parades are all well and good; I just got the reward I wanted: "I can see normal from here." And you will have it, my friend.

You'd do it for me.

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

hee hee! guardian butterfly. yay!

i am glad to have provided same.

*hug*

[leback.livejournal.com]

I just wish to note that I really enjoyed watching the butterfly attacking one of the hospital technicians. (Or possibly trying to mate with him -- on further reflection, I'm not altogether sure.) Nicely done!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It was a very brave butterfly. I appreciated the help.

[snippy]

I want you to remember that we all think you're important enough to make these efforts. You are important!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

I am very honored to have such people in my life. Thanks again for the phone call.

[okoshun.livejournal.com]

:) I'm glad to see you're on the mend. We were all worried about you.

[kightp.livejournal.com]

Ya, it's stonebender, writing in his own voice again!

So glad to see you back and mending. I find myself wishing you boredom, because that's usually a clear sign that you're practically well.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

I haven't been bored yet. I'm off the antibiotics but I'm still suffering from way too much free-floating anxiety. Physically I think I'm mostly recovered. Intellectually lots of thoughts of impending death. No, I'm not dying yet, but I'm very aware that I'm a lot closer to it now, than I was. I can't seem to shake the negative thoughts. I'm working on it.

[kimberly-a.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking of you. I'm glad to hear you're feeling better and that you have had so much support.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Thank he very much. Yesterday I was off the antibiotics and physically feeling pretty good.

[aquaeri.livejournal.com]

I am so relieved you're safely home and on the mend.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm off the antibiotics and breathing well. Still dealing with anxiety and fear, but that will get better with time. At least that's what I'm concentrating on bringing about.

[firecat]

I'm so glad you were able to sleep through the night. I thought of you many times while you were in the hospital and kept obsessively checking on yours and Serene's and Loracs's journals. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to get it together to actually express these things WHILE you were in the hospital.

[tiger-spot.livejournal.com]

Yeah, what firecat said.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

No worries, I appreciate your good thoughts whenever they come about. Thank you!

[dawnd.livejournal.com]

So glad to hear you are on the mend!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[19-crows.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm so glad you're getting some sleep. Get better!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

I'm off the antibiotics and breathing well. I think we're done with the pneumonia. Now I need to deal with the psychological fallout. Thank you!

[clever-doberman.livejournal.com]

woo hoo for the Stonebender!!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I really appreciated your visit and your offer. I'm not quite as terrified as I have been at least not all the time anyway. Just getting through the days until things get better.

[leback.livejournal.com]

As I just mentioned over in Serene's journal, I have a hard time feeling like I deserve gratitude for anything that's so much my pleasure as was the afternoon hanging out with you and Carol and Linda. Even stuck in the hospital and feeling like crap, you're a terrific host, and though I wish it had occurred under better circumstances, I had a splendid time. Thank you for the company and the conversation!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

But I forgot to mention that peanut brittle that you brought. That was truly an awesome get well present. Your company was much appreciated as well.

YAY!

[tracytreefrog.livejournal.com]

You normal? Nah*giggles* So glad you are better I have never been so scared in my life I don't think than I have been in the last week or so.Don't do that again! Love you Big BRO!

Re: YAY!

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

The plan is never to get pneumonia again. Thank you so much for everything you did.

[sagittaria.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad you are home and feeling better. You have my sympathy for going through such an ordeal, and hugs if you would like them.

[stonebender.livejournal.com]

Sympathy and hugs are usually welcome :-) Thanks much!