*sigh*

[stonebender]

Seems like I only post when I'm not happy these days. I try to follow serenejournal's good example concentrating on the good things and I have lots of good things. My family most of all. How I got these amazing women in my life is beyond me. They are such a blessing. My friends, who are the smartest, most talented, socially aware group of people I know. The world is a better place because they exist (and if you think you might be part of this group, you probably are).

It seems like getting through each day is getting harder all the time for me, and I'm sure many, many, others. Personally, I've had lots of "learning experiences" in the last few years. Many I would've preferred avoiding, but we don't get to choose. As an old lefty advocate I've gone from despair to hope and back again. This year has been the most exciting politically and the most depressing. Budgets are being cut everywhere. Our safety net in the United States is becoming nonexistent.

The kind of systemic change I think we need in order to rebuild our social supports seem unlikely to happen. I just don't know what to do.

The music chosen by Rhapsody is particularly appropriate. :-)

Comments

[anansi133]

Sometimes I find it helpful to think of myself as fighting my own tiny little battle as part of a larger War, the noise from which is lost in the fog. So in the moment, it seems like I fight alone, and the black hats who want me to feel isolated, do everything they can to keep it that way.

Yet over time, victorious noises from other parts of the battle-space can't help but make it to my foxhole, and it seems like things are going well in the bigger picture, even as I seem to be losing the game at my end.

Strangest of all, is how I have felt like I was losing the battle for over 20 years now, and I'm still losing it, though on a different field. I wonder sometimes if I would even notice a total victory, or if I'd be so bogged down in my little corner of it that it would feel like defeat?

[stonebender]

*nod* I think that's the most difficult part of advocacy for me. You don't often see immediate results and even when things do change it's hard to know whether your part in it actually did anything.