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I've been in a pretty bad emotional state for a few weeks now. I'm not exactly sure what has caused it. Perhaps my 60th birthday. Perhaps it's worrying about my partners. [personal profile] loracs has been having more and more trouble with her knee. [personal profile] serene has taken on a lot of responsibility for very good reasons, but I know it's stressful. I can't help but feel like I want to help them both and I just can't.

My mother died not that long ago (November). Along with the normal grief I have for losing her. Her death feels a little like I'm cut off from the rest of my family. It's complicated, but I made some decisions in my 20's that isolated me from my blood family. I was staying sort of connected through my parents, but now they both are dead I feel adrift about the rest of the family. I'm not even particularly sure that I want more connection. Being a recovering Catholic I get to feel guilty about that too.

I have upped my Zoloft and that seems to be helping things some. I have FOGcon 8 to go to soon. Which I look forward to and dread at the same time.

Saw The Post yesterday and really enjoyed it. Not at all what I expected it to be. Spielberg managed to include some not-so-subtle comments on gender and racial politics of the time. Some really nice small intimate scenes with women talking to other women about things other than some guy. I know that Meryl Streep is the perennial Oscar nominee. However her performance in this movie certainly merits another win. Not that I want her to get it again, there are plenty deserving actors this time around.

I'm trying to catch all the Oscar-nominated films, but I will fail.

I'm looking forward to the mid season premiere of The Walking Dead. I hope everyone is having a great weekend.

P.S. I've been looking at a few recent posts of my and realize I've gotten a bit repetitive. Sorry about that. I will try to come up with new topics. :-)

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Date: 2018-02-25 11:57 pm (UTC)
snippy: Lego me holding book (Default)
From: [personal profile] snippy
I don't find you repetitive, and I've had the same guilt. I haven't been well for a whole day since August of last year, and I don't post because it would be all negative. At least when you post I think about you for a minute instead of my own problems.

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Date: 2018-03-01 05:04 pm (UTC)
serene: mailbox (Default)
From: [personal profile] serene
Just a datapoint for both of you: I'd rather hear from my friends and family when things are hard if they're up for it than not hear from them at all.

Which is not to say you're responsible for my happiness. Well, Guy is, but not snippy so much. :-)
Edited Date: 2018-03-01 05:05 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2018-02-26 12:04 am (UTC)
redbird: closeup of me drinking tea, in a friend's kitchen (Default)
From: [personal profile] redbird
Sometimes life is repetitive. I'd rather hear about what's going on in your life, or what matters to you, than for you to pick a topic based on not having posted about it before.

I mean, if you want to post about horse domestication or your favorite colors, go for it, but don't feel like you owe us variety.

Not worried at all.

Date: 2018-02-27 12:29 am (UTC)
redbird: closeup of me drinking tea, in a friend's kitchen (Default)
From: [personal profile] redbird
Brick red? Scarlet? The red flag?

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Date: 2018-02-27 10:52 pm (UTC)
jesse_the_k: Extreme closeup of dark red blood cells (Blood makes noise)
From: [personal profile] jesse_the_k
blood, perhaps?

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Date: 2018-03-01 05:05 pm (UTC)
serene: mailbox (Default)
From: [personal profile] serene

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Date: 2018-02-26 02:58 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] tiger_spot
I'm sorry you've been feeling crummy. I will see you at FOGcon and I hope all the looking forward to parts happen and none of the dreading ones! (Anything I can help with?)

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Date: 2018-02-26 09:58 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] ljgeoff
I *so* wish I could go to FOGcon this year! Do you go every year? I think what I'm going to do is alternate between FOGcon and wiscon. So next year would be my FOGcon year, and I'd love to see you. Also, I want to chime in and say I don't think that you sound repetitive. Like redbird said, that's life, hey?

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Date: 2018-03-01 05:06 pm (UTC)
serene: mailbox (Default)
From: [personal profile] serene
Shall we try again to make it to FOGcon together next year?

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Date: 2018-02-27 10:55 pm (UTC)
jesse_the_k: Fat ewe stares at camera (ewe looking at me?)
From: [personal profile] jesse_the_k
I appreciate whatever you have to say, and as you mentioned to [personal profile] snippy, posting is generally its own reward.

I feel you on that anticipation/dread mix: it's the hardest part of conrunning. I hope you're so happily busy you have no time for regrets. They'll enjoy the con that happens, nevermind the one y'all planned.


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