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[stonebender]

I've been feeling not at all myself for a while now. These days, I'm not exactly depressed, but I seem incapable of maintaining a positive self-image for more than an hour or so. Part of this is most certainly my sporadic consumption of my antidepressant. I don't feel like that's all of it though. Even days when things go really well for me (like today for example) I quickly feel guilty, second-guessing what I should've done or what I shouldn't. Somehow I need to figure out how to gain some perspective for at least a thicker skin.

I am managing to ever so slowly get some necessary things done. I found a therapy group for people with disabilities that meets in Berkeley. I'm hoping it will help some.

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[firecat]

Personally, I do call it depression when I find it difficult to maintain a positive self-image for more than an hour or so, although I know it's not the most severe form.

At this point I'm moving away from trying to prevent the second-guessing and the guilty feelings and toward noticing them sooner and holding them more lightly.

I hope you feel better soon.

[stonebender]

I didn't mean to make it seem like I was questioning that I was depressed it was more noticing how my depression was feeling really different this time around and of course not keeping up with my meds doesn't help. "Holding them more likely" that's a lovely phrase and yeah for me that's the trick